It is my choice

 In Meditation

I often find myself doing or saying things that I am not totally aware of. At a younger age, nine times out of ten it was a bad thing, but recently I have had the amazing feeling of this being a surprisingly good thing. 
How I am now responding and reacting in the completely opposite way of how I did previously, and reading what I spontaneously wrote then, I realize how much I have changed. 

The need to make others understand what I am trying to say would require some kind of confirmation, like a test. If what I am saying has been interpreted the way I intended it. Imagine there was a button or notification in your mail, that the message is not only opened, read but understood 🙂 Well, I think life has caught up with me and maybe I have lost patience over the years. It is the prerogative of the receiver to interpret what I am saying, writing and expressing, not me. 

So this morning I was reading a post on Instagram, a beautiful fellow yogi asked how we, the followers, felt about social media. She is a friend, without knowing it, due to social media and I would not have known of her otherwise.
I do not really know how to relate to social media. Or I have a mixed relation to it. I am not very frequent with my own posts but I do follow, read and reflect upon others´. And I do my best not to get caught up, judge or intentionally misinterpret things. This in itself might be a way to deal with it, but what I am is the way it (social media) deprive me of my present moment. Of my real social, and even silent, private life. Even if I am under the impression I am in control. It is very unsocial. 

Intruiging situation. 
But what would life be if we did not have options and a possibility to choose?
I am still able and capable of deciding if it is something I want to do, so truly it should not be a problem. Should it?

And I do like to connect even on both a superficial and artificial platform, like social media.
To give my support, a click on the “heart” or a “thumbs up” to random posts and random friends. As well as it is encouraging to get the likes and thumbs up from friends and strangers when I chosen to leave a part of my life and self out there. 

As with life itself, handled with care I am sure it will not make or break us.
With love through cyberspace ❤️